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Mood meh
Wearing red 'Freedom' tee, Levi Strauss jeans, black belt, purple socks with pink monkeys on...
Eating/Drinking Nothing
Hearing Bliss - Song for Olabi
Dreamt about dunno.
Present MSN name Life's a bitch. Then you die.
Talking to No one. Like I've said before, no one loves me atm. Friend-wise; that is...
Last text from Bone
Word of the Day money
So. After careful consideration: I have come to the conclusion that of all the kit I bought yesterday, I can probably use one plastron, the chest protector and the socks. Yes. That's all. I'm selling the rest on; and, like I usually do, I'm spending the money before I have it (both literally and well... in my head).
I haven't found out about the job yet, but here's some clues about the CSI episode, (and I nearly pissed myself laughing reading the first one!) >>
Well, Catherine got kidnapped and beat up at a scene, Nick has been in peril (and almost got arrested for murder), Warrick almost got fired...and Grissom was pretty blasé about it all. At most, he looked pained. "Grissom, Holly Gribbs just died." [insert pained look] "Grissom, Nick just got pushed out of a window." [insert constipated expression here] Of course, it's another thing to see the person getting hurt, but I really think Sara is on a whole other level for Grissom. He was totally messed up in Butterflied because someone who looked like Sara died. I think that, of course, he'd be upset if anyone was getting attacked, but the stakes are much higher when it comes to Sara.
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Re: The fantasy rape sequence:
I would be disappointed to see this scene cut.
I could defend the scene by saying that it advances Adam's state of mind (*look, he is seriously violent) and advances OUR fear for Sara's safety (*Oh my god, Sara is really in danger).
But ... those reasonable explanations aren't why I want the scene in this episode.
The scene is guttural. Visceral. It's raw emotion. It's violation, power, pain. The scene is not logical or intellectual. For me, the scene can stand alone as an emotional vignette of not only the moment (her being attacked in that hospital) but it is also a spot-on representation of what it has been like to be Sara Sidle (metaphorically, perhaps even literally).
If the scene HAPPENS to advance some basic part of Sara's backstory, then so be it. I don't need it to lead anywhere to see that it works in this episode.
Sara's past (regardless of the details) has been an ONGOING VIOLATION. What better way to show the audience this emotional truth than to hit them with a subthreshold scene like this?
I think it makes sense. I think the scene works.
(Now my only concern is that this episode will fall flat the way Compulsion did ... What happens if Grissom is his same, nonchalant self? What's he going to do, quote Kant and wax poetic about violence as Sara has another nervous breakdown?)
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QUOTE - And as an aside, in Grissom vs. the Volcano he protected Catherine from the stray bullets by covering her body with his own. --
Well, he would be a bit of a loser if he just hit the ground and left Catherine to be made swiss cheese. With anyone he works with, of course he's going to be concerned for their well being, but there are levels. I'm sure if he and Greg were in the field and someone started randomly firing a gun that Grissom might tackle Greg to the ground, or push him out of harm's way, but that doesn't mean I feel that Greg/Grissom slash writers have their finger on the pulse of the show, either.
Grissom and Catherine have been friends for a long time, they have a rapport, and while sometimes they are closer than other times, they are still friends. But, Grissom isn't torn up over Catherine, and he didn't tell Catherine he'd been interested in beauty since her pole swinging days, and he's not drawn to Catherine like a moth to a flame and I really doubt she leads him down unbound, and he didn't have a shit fit temper tantrum when Catherine dated, kissed, and slept with all those other guys, and he doesn't try to comfort her when she's upset, and he didn't come unglued over a busty blonde in Butterflied, and he didn't put his job on the line to protect her after she'd been suspended, and he's not going out of his mind, screaming, and trying to break through glass in this episode for anyone other than Sara. I could go on, but all this to say that the argument for Grissom and Catherine is so beyond over. The writers can balk and fight it and deny and be evasive, but the evidence never lies, right? All of this goes to show Grissom's state of mind where Sara is concerned - and whatever protectiveness, concern, or affection he's had for anyone else pales in comparison to what he feels for Sara.
<<>old to see 'emotionally-unavailable' Grissom. Really. I want my old Grissom back. I totally agree with OhBrynnie and Mystery who posted those comments.
I'll post some proper spoilers sometime, but I'm feeling a little ill atm. I'll just finish up and then go to bed.
But anyway, ripping myself away from CSI related talk; back to the point of the blog: I have been offered some pretty cool stuff at school today, even though I didn't go. I'll mention it when it's happened, but for now I'll just say that I'm gonna get some help with work and stuff and whatever. I'll probably be missing most of my lessons on Wednesday (when I'll probably be going back) cos I'll be seeing Mrs Davis (located under the stage...). Monster from the Deep? Nah, apparently she's really nice.
It's just that all this sudden attention on me is making me a little uncomfortable. I feel quite stupid, instead of top of the pile like I apparently was at one point...
My ma told my form teacher (Birchall, not Jack), my Head of Year and Deputy Head of Year about all my medical problems when she went to see them today. I'm annoyed that she told them about some of my personal problems, and now quite a lot of it is going to be mentioned to all my facking teachers. All of them! :(
I found out some stuff though, apparently Mr Wilding has what I have too. But omgsh, did I really want to know that? Also, surprisingly, and shockingly, my formy's had some problems too. Not my problems, but they thought that she also had what I had, but it turned out to me more serious. I feel quite bad for her. I am also quite worried that maybe my shite-arse doctor got it wrong, and that I may actually die. Just a thought.
I also found out that some teachers do actually care about me as a person. They've been worried about me spending so much time being off, and I think that's why I'm getting special treatment. The odd one or two have even volenteered their own time to sort me out. I guess that's the big thing I wasn't going to mention, but oh well...
I won't say who though. It's not definite yet. And I have to wait for them to actually make an offer to me about the matters, but I feel wanted and... well, that's all. But seeing as none of my close mates have noticed that I've been off a lot this year, it makes me feel good that people do care about me, even if I wasn't expecting it to be teachers of all people.
I usually call or text my mates when they've been off, try to make sure they're okay. Or, failing that, ask them how they are and all that when they get back. My mates don't. I shouldn't take it personally, I guess. I guess they don't see me that often anyway to even notice if I'm there. I won't bring this up face to face with them, cos it's fighting a losing battle - but I still feel the way I do for a long time. I've told them time and time again. But the thing is, as time's gone on - we've all got pretty selfish, including myself. I wish I could still talk to them, but I'm not sure that I can anymore. *sigh* I 'yearn' so much for the old times, but reminiscing and feeling nostalgic for the old days just hurts, and to be honest; I have enough on my plate to worry about than feel bad about something that I can never have. But unfortunately (again), I've always been one of those people (since I was a wee lassie), who've always wanted what other people have, what I can't have, etc.
And that plain sucks.
Wearing red 'Freedom' tee, Levi Strauss jeans, black belt, purple socks with pink monkeys on...
Eating/Drinking Nothing
Hearing Bliss - Song for Olabi
Dreamt about dunno.
Present MSN name Life's a bitch. Then you die.
Talking to No one. Like I've said before, no one loves me atm. Friend-wise; that is...
Last text from Bone
Word of the Day money
So. After careful consideration: I have come to the conclusion that of all the kit I bought yesterday, I can probably use one plastron, the chest protector and the socks. Yes. That's all. I'm selling the rest on; and, like I usually do, I'm spending the money before I have it (both literally and well... in my head).
I haven't found out about the job yet, but here's some clues about the CSI episode, (and I nearly pissed myself laughing reading the first one!) >>
Well, Catherine got kidnapped and beat up at a scene, Nick has been in peril (and almost got arrested for murder), Warrick almost got fired...and Grissom was pretty blasé about it all. At most, he looked pained. "Grissom, Holly Gribbs just died." [insert pained look] "Grissom, Nick just got pushed out of a window." [insert constipated expression here] Of course, it's another thing to see the person getting hurt, but I really think Sara is on a whole other level for Grissom. He was totally messed up in Butterflied because someone who looked like Sara died. I think that, of course, he'd be upset if anyone was getting attacked, but the stakes are much higher when it comes to Sara.
--
Re: The fantasy rape sequence:
I would be disappointed to see this scene cut.
I could defend the scene by saying that it advances Adam's state of mind (*look, he is seriously violent) and advances OUR fear for Sara's safety (*Oh my god, Sara is really in danger).
But ... those reasonable explanations aren't why I want the scene in this episode.
The scene is guttural. Visceral. It's raw emotion. It's violation, power, pain. The scene is not logical or intellectual. For me, the scene can stand alone as an emotional vignette of not only the moment (her being attacked in that hospital) but it is also a spot-on representation of what it has been like to be Sara Sidle (metaphorically, perhaps even literally).
If the scene HAPPENS to advance some basic part of Sara's backstory, then so be it. I don't need it to lead anywhere to see that it works in this episode.
Sara's past (regardless of the details) has been an ONGOING VIOLATION. What better way to show the audience this emotional truth than to hit them with a subthreshold scene like this?
I think it makes sense. I think the scene works.
(Now my only concern is that this episode will fall flat the way Compulsion did ... What happens if Grissom is his same, nonchalant self? What's he going to do, quote Kant and wax poetic about violence as Sara has another nervous breakdown?)
--
QUOTE - And as an aside, in Grissom vs. the Volcano he protected Catherine from the stray bullets by covering her body with his own. --
Well, he would be a bit of a loser if he just hit the ground and left Catherine to be made swiss cheese. With anyone he works with, of course he's going to be concerned for their well being, but there are levels. I'm sure if he and Greg were in the field and someone started randomly firing a gun that Grissom might tackle Greg to the ground, or push him out of harm's way, but that doesn't mean I feel that Greg/Grissom slash writers have their finger on the pulse of the show, either.
Grissom and Catherine have been friends for a long time, they have a rapport, and while sometimes they are closer than other times, they are still friends. But, Grissom isn't torn up over Catherine, and he didn't tell Catherine he'd been interested in beauty since her pole swinging days, and he's not drawn to Catherine like a moth to a flame and I really doubt she leads him down unbound, and he didn't have a shit fit temper tantrum when Catherine dated, kissed, and slept with all those other guys, and he doesn't try to comfort her when she's upset, and he didn't come unglued over a busty blonde in Butterflied, and he didn't put his job on the line to protect her after she'd been suspended, and he's not going out of his mind, screaming, and trying to break through glass in this episode for anyone other than Sara. I could go on, but all this to say that the argument for Grissom and Catherine is so beyond over. The writers can balk and fight it and deny and be evasive, but the evidence never lies, right? All of this goes to show Grissom's state of mind where Sara is concerned - and whatever protectiveness, concern, or affection he's had for anyone else pales in comparison to what he feels for Sara.
<<>old to see 'emotionally-unavailable' Grissom. Really. I want my old Grissom back. I totally agree with OhBrynnie and Mystery who posted those comments.
I'll post some proper spoilers sometime, but I'm feeling a little ill atm. I'll just finish up and then go to bed.
But anyway, ripping myself away from CSI related talk; back to the point of the blog: I have been offered some pretty cool stuff at school today, even though I didn't go. I'll mention it when it's happened, but for now I'll just say that I'm gonna get some help with work and stuff and whatever. I'll probably be missing most of my lessons on Wednesday (when I'll probably be going back) cos I'll be seeing Mrs Davis (located under the stage...). Monster from the Deep? Nah, apparently she's really nice.
It's just that all this sudden attention on me is making me a little uncomfortable. I feel quite stupid, instead of top of the pile like I apparently was at one point...
My ma told my form teacher (Birchall, not Jack), my Head of Year and Deputy Head of Year about all my medical problems when she went to see them today. I'm annoyed that she told them about some of my personal problems, and now quite a lot of it is going to be mentioned to all my facking teachers. All of them! :(
I found out some stuff though, apparently Mr Wilding has what I have too. But omgsh, did I really want to know that? Also, surprisingly, and shockingly, my formy's had some problems too. Not my problems, but they thought that she also had what I had, but it turned out to me more serious. I feel quite bad for her. I am also quite worried that maybe my shite-arse doctor got it wrong, and that I may actually die. Just a thought.
I also found out that some teachers do actually care about me as a person. They've been worried about me spending so much time being off, and I think that's why I'm getting special treatment. The odd one or two have even volenteered their own time to sort me out. I guess that's the big thing I wasn't going to mention, but oh well...
I won't say who though. It's not definite yet. And I have to wait for them to actually make an offer to me about the matters, but I feel wanted and... well, that's all. But seeing as none of my close mates have noticed that I've been off a lot this year, it makes me feel good that people do care about me, even if I wasn't expecting it to be teachers of all people.
I usually call or text my mates when they've been off, try to make sure they're okay. Or, failing that, ask them how they are and all that when they get back. My mates don't. I shouldn't take it personally, I guess. I guess they don't see me that often anyway to even notice if I'm there. I won't bring this up face to face with them, cos it's fighting a losing battle - but I still feel the way I do for a long time. I've told them time and time again. But the thing is, as time's gone on - we've all got pretty selfish, including myself. I wish I could still talk to them, but I'm not sure that I can anymore. *sigh* I 'yearn' so much for the old times, but reminiscing and feeling nostalgic for the old days just hurts, and to be honest; I have enough on my plate to worry about than feel bad about something that I can never have. But unfortunately (again), I've always been one of those people (since I was a wee lassie), who've always wanted what other people have, what I can't have, etc.
And that plain sucks.
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