You can pick through a million lives and never have one of your own.

Mood pissed off
Wearing school uniform
Eating/Drinking cherry menthol chewing gum
Hearing Sissel Kyrkjebo - Mitt Hjerte Alltid Vanker
Dreamt about MO
Present MSN name You can pick througha million lives and never have one of your own.
Talking to Becky & Ed.
Last text from Bone


Daniel actually isn't here today, which is quite a turn up for the books.
However, even though he's not here, my day has been ruined by other such crappy things: namely, Annette happened. Newly modified brace happened. Looked an idiot in front of MO (possibly). Called Mrs Atherton a cheesecake unintentionally...

Rightio, Annette... Well, I had to go to the orthodontist today (obv.). She decided to make my brace more unbearable and so put mongy pink plastic stuff on it. Was testing in in my mouth, and told me not to bite down. So I didn't. But the bitch was pushing my bottom jaw so technically I was biting down and so she had a go at me. I hate her. I hate her more than Fatty, Poodle and Beige Woman put together (*shudder at thought*).
Anyway, the new brace is utter agony and so I am not wearing it right now. I don't think anyone really cares about the agony of it at school, so on Wednesday I am quietly going to suffer.
I feel a little bad about having a go at everyone today. Sam U, Vamp, Flo et al. ... still though, they could have been more sympathetic.

Also had my second bass lesson today. Still feel like a total inadequate. Flo says I'm just one of those people who want everything right here, right now. Does that mean I'm a little brat? I suppose so, actually. Everyone says I am, except me. But you knew that already, didn't you?

I wonder why I'm so depressed these days. Because of my little fads which take a lot out of me? Because of frustrations with braces, friends, lack of bf, cosmetic problems or MO problems? I just got asked if I'm ok and why am I so depressed these days? Well, I reckon it's all these things put together.
I know I want to be a psychologist when I'm older, but I don't need to sort out everyone's problems right now when I am technically an emotionally unstable teen? How can I cope?
*sigh* My MSN name sums that all up, I s'pose.

I tried to write my second entry yesterday, but it didn't load quickly enough on the internet, so I gave up.

Umm... what else? Other than the fact that I am a emotionally-mentally-spiritually-physically-confuzzled-fifteen-year-old? Not a lot.

I am so fucked up these days. I probably need to talk to someone for help (ie: mate. Not professional.) And although I have loads of good mates, there's probably only one (and two halves) who I could talk to, and sometimes that's not enough. Especially if you know that you aren't even a top ten priority of some who you once prided on being best mates with...

I'll leave it at that for tonight.