Away 'laughing' on a fast CAMEL (The Return of)

Mood alright.

Wearing Wrangler jeans, new Junk orange top thingy (so cool) and my steve jacket
Eating/Drinking herbal thingies
Hearing Fleetwood Mac - Brushes
Dreamt about dunno.
Currently reading something Fleetwood Mac-ified.
Present MSN name 24 hours in a day. 24 beers in a case, Coincidence?.... I think not!
Talking to no one.
Last text from I dunno? Bone? It usually is. My other mates are stupid and ignore me most of the time.
Word of the Day camel

I have a lot of people blocked on MSN atm. Why? Because it's a waste of my time talking to them. Okay, it's mean and all, but I'm bitter - so whatever.

I've had enough of a lot of things, actually.

I went trampolining on Friday and hated it. It wouldn't be quite so bad if everyone wasn't watching you. Anyway, how it is even proper exercise? And when are you ever going to need to be able to do those stupid 'tricks' anyway? Totally pointless.

I'm in a really black mood. Ellie lifted me out of it briefly a bit earlier. I walked over to hers and we had a good time just chatting and stuff. Despite everything, she's still my long-suffering best mate. I have a lot to thank her for. It's nice she makes time for me too.

Other friends of mine don't.

But I don't think that's why I'm in such a bad mood. Through dodgy circumstances on Friday, I managed to lose my mp3 player back thingy. The lovely Flessie got it back for me and Tinderbox brought it back for me.

But something much worse had been lost, and in comparison (although I'm really grateful to Tinderbox and especially Flessie), the mp3 player thing is nothing. Ultimately, it's replaceable.

What I lost is not quite so.

My bullet necklace is gone.

I am bulletless.

I actually cried.

I've found some potential bullets. But the nub is, they're not my bullet. I've had that for about 4 years. More or less never took it off.

Now it's gone and I'm miserable. I'm about to grab my torch and check in the dustbin. I should have done it earlier, but I didn't, which was dumb, cos it's dark now.

I didn't get the other necklace either, the one that I showed Ellie. She liked it. I loved it too.

I may be materialistic, but at the minute, it doesn't bother me. At the minute, my bullet is probably out crying somewhere in some drug den with protitutes and pimps, with not enough food or water, and it's dark and cold out there. It must be so scared.

I think I'm crying again. Maybe camels will bring it home. Tibia, do you have any suggestions as to when?